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[singlelogbridge]

It shouldn't be. [He admits quietly and then shakes his head.]

What I mean is, we always knew this would happen. In his world, he'd already died. [For that matter—] So have I. We always knew that if one of us left, it was goodbye for real. [It isn't the sort of thing he usually admits to others casually. Not because it's a secret, but because he is always worried about how they'll take it, what kind of burden it might lay on them. But he isn't thinking about that now and it comes out.]

I knew it would happen one day. I knew and somehow it still....[He trails off and sighs, shaking his head.]

[deadanimemom]

Dying with regrets seems pretty popular. [She says, with a little bit of amusement. And with that kind of finality in the way he talks about it, "I regret dying" isn't quite as popular a sentiment.]

But that doesn't stop you, or me, or him, or any of us from being alive while we're here. It doesn't stop us from caring.

[singlelogbridge]

[Or me she says, and it should make him even sadder but instead it makes him look at her with a warmth that had been absent before. There's a connection in it, an understanding.]

It doesn't. And it's a gift, isn't it? My time, and yours. And the time I had with him. I know it is, it always has been. [He isn't angry about the loss, he has always been so grateful. It's just that it hurts so damn much.]

We knew. Both of us knew. He accepted it. [And it helps a little, knowing that Itachi was ready. Still is eyes grow hot again and he reaches up to wipe them away.]

It's just I'm tired of this feeling. I'm tired of losing the people I love.